regrets and acceptance

coming close to a year now from where we last left off, and we said goodbye...

i've been counting the days, even if they have been going by so quickly i've almost lost track.
if you ask me, i say i would have done it all the same ... but maybe, just maybe, i would not have waited so long to give you the gift from my heart...for only a moment, to see you smile, so sweet and sincere, so beautiful...how i miss the moments and the days, the words, the laughter, the dreams we shared, the tears we've cried together.
in a perfect world, you would still be here with me. but some things have changed, and although it hurts so much and the nights resound with the cry of a broken dream, i try to accept it.

you must know though, that you will always be in my heart. no matter where and how far you go. no matter the person you change into. love is so much bigger than we can ever imagine it to be. i will never forget you, i can never forget you.

and i thank you for your faith in me and return the thanks for true friendship.
you said "trust me, someday you'll find what you're looking for".
it seems nearly impossible. yet, in a deep and secret corner of my heart, i believe it to be true.
when that day comes, i wonder, where will you be?

God bless you, my beloved.