Wednesday, August 30, 2006

the genesis of the petrina7 microuniverse ...

two hours of sleep and a recalcitrant laptop and printer and one of the longest coffee-fueled nights of my life...and i m here...
but enough of work. today i want to share the genesis, the origins of the petrina7 microuniverse, in short, how it all began, the whats and the whys. :)

i chanced upon the idea of blogging somewhere mid-2002, intrigued with the idea, i decided to sign up for a blogger account ... and christened my blog Pet's World - My MicroUniverse. i thought about the blog's name for a bit, and i made up my mind that i wanted to focus almost exclusively on the inside, the internal part of humanity, the spiritual as opposed to my everyday doings alone . hence the name MicroUniverse ... i wanted to share my thoughts and feelings and reflections, things i had learned ... my family, friends, my life ...!

blogging took off slowly, i was in the first year of uni and busy adapting to uni life and taking part in various projects. i only really began writing in my second year... and i have written poems, reflections and prose poems on a variety of topics. there are some posts i really love, and i never tire of looking back at them...not out of hubris, but as a landmark, a milepost of how far i have come since i first came to um ... since the old days...

sometimes silmarien and i would compose silly and funny posts. oh yes. because like my grandma said, if you don't laugh you'll just end up crying... then there were the doings posts. just to let my friends know how and what i am doing, short summary, no pix... basically surviving and trying to enjoy myself in the process. and doubtless ... learning and growing. silmarien has been a good friend, and a great co-writer...btw, thank you so much ...

a common theme in my posts is hope, and i really want to be able to share hope with readers of this blog (if there are...i sometimes wonder that i am like the tree crashing in a forest where there's no one around - does anyone hear the crash?) ...life is a journey, and we are all going to make it, to be there for each other... i also would hope i have managed to share love and care, that whatever it is, it's ok, we all err, we all sometimes get things wrong and hurt the ones we love, we cry, we know sorrow... but it is in this brokenness that we discover a wholeness found in community, only when we acknowledge we are all connected to each other. i really do care, do give a damn, and there is no better way to show this than to actually be there for someone.

and God, what would i do without Him? i remember vaguely writing this in Fm 1, sometimes some of us can't believe in Him, too nebulous maybe, too abstract, but love ... concrete solid acceptance and care... that's real. and that is a part i long to share with all my readers, and on a broader scale, the people around me in real time.

a tall order and perhaps too idealistic but i am still going on. and i won't give up, because i know i m not doing this on my own, that His grace is indeed sufficient for me. and i pray the same for you. all of you. God bless, and thank you for reading my blog. whoever you are, thank you. and if it's not too much for you, He loves you ... and i do too.

p/s i don't do pix on my blog, never got the hang of it. but there are plenty of pix on my friendster page. so yeah, everything has its own purpose.

p/ps i think too much. i write way too little. i need to clear some memory space in that tiny place called my mind so it's off to pen-and-paper journal land. yes, the place where i process my thoughts and raw emotions into the neat and more coherent form on this blog. more. not absolute. no misrep. don't go legal on me ya.

p/pp/s i am melancholic. the blog's overall shade is light blue. but i LOVE blue. and black. so there. basic statement of fact - petrina7 is a pessimistic optimist. once you understand this, you can understand all my writings so far. it usually ends on a hopeful (not depressed) note. :)
Good day to you!
[woohoo, balik kampung ... only for 3 days, but good enough for me...]

1 comment:

Yin Harn said...

I like how your posts always end on a hopeful note even though they may begin on a depressing note.

And unlike what some people think, having suicidal thoughts =/= a suicidal person. :)