Towards the second crossroads...

the journey is far from over.
there was a crossroads earlier, and i made a choice. i have not looked back since.
with faith in my heart, and the lessons learned, i set out seeking to better myself.
but if i sought an easier journey, it did not materialise.
there have been thorns in my path, unexpected marauders, doubt, fear, anger, sorrow...there have been dangers, many dangers.
many a time i have wanted to give up this journey. too much trouble, the risk of death ever present. i could find a safe by way and there be i. but i would stop exploring, stop finding out, stop searching.
and i would never know what was ahead.

so on i went.

and now i come to yet another crossroads. so many question marks hang over my head like a heavy, rain-soaked cloud. an opportunity to head down another path, a new beginning if you like...a chance for some closure. but pain has a strangely comforting familiarity i do not seem ready to discard as of yet. empty and light headed and detached...this could be the time to throw away what no longer is of use. what that can only hurt, can only bring down.

i see a blank slate ready and waiting for me to write on it. i see hope... and though i know i have my work cut out for me, i know i m not really alone here. say a prayer of thanks to Him. by His grace, i choose wisely. no matter what, all things work for the good of those who believe in Him.