the past few days have been a crazy whirlwind - from sending ins to hentian putra on Thursday to her finally catching a bus to KB to see her grandma who was in a coma after waiting for 12 hours for a ticket to her telling me on Friday that she managed to catch her grandma 10 minutes before she died to being involved in a car accident on Saturday night, culminating in me calling a tow truck and making a police report late Saturday night and i reached home about 1.15 a.m on Sunday morning...
i'm tired out. but still alive, and grateful that Mel was with me during the accident - and that my family has been supportive. thank you so much!
p/s i m ok. but the car is not. thankfully we weren't in the car during the accident - the back bumper's a gone case, the lights got smashed up and the left front portion of the car has been dented quite badly. we would have suffered back and head injuries had we been in the car then.
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on another note (pun intended), i went carolling on Saturday morning and it gave me so much pleasure to be able to sing for the old folks over at Sri Seronok and at the Little Sisters of the Poor home.
i was quite struck by what one of the residents said - about us (the SFX Lifeline choir) choosing to use our talents to the full - i m not the world's best singer, far from it, but using our talents to the full simply means choosing to use them for God's glory, no matter what purpose he calls them for.
talents we all have, significant or not, for the Lord gave them to us and it is good that we remember to credit him in our daily lives.
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repentance and advent, learning of grace and the blocks to God's grace in my life - i don't always like listening to what he says - it's too hard, i don't want to do it, but the moment i choose to, no matter how and what i feel, he makes it possible for me to go through with it.
spring cleaning is good for the house, likewise the soul.
and advent is a time of spring cleaning of the soul. look! a saviour is coming.
if everyday felt like nothing but mindless drudgery, then thank God that his love gave you something bigger to live for.
entering into that tiny space, the inner room which used to be so small, the beams of light show me just how much bigger the space within really is.
recalling dietrich bonhoeffer's words on metanoia -
"Later i discovered and am still discovering up to this very moment that it is only by living completely in this world that one learns to believe. one must abandon every attempt to make something of oneself, whether it be a saint, a converted sinner, a churchman (the priestly type, so-called!) a righteous man or an unrighteous one, a sick man or a healthy on. this is what i mean by worldliness - taking life in one's stride, with all its duties and problems, its successes and failures, its experiences and helplessness. it is in such a life that we throw ourselves utterly into the arms of God and participate in trhe sufferings in the world and watch with Christ in Gethsemane.
that is faith, that is metanoia, and that is what makes a man and a Christian.
how can success make us arrogant or failure lead us astray, when we participate in the sufferings of God by living in this world?"
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