because

because...

1. i know. there are a good many things, not proven on a balance of probabilities or beyond reasonable doubt, useless to others and perhaps even to myself, and which are on a gut/ instinct level, and which i know to be true. regardless of anything else, i trust that instinct. it has kept me alive so far and will continue to do so, i know it. and sometimes its revelations even make me laugh, when i get my perspective back, when i can see things as they really are, and not what my rose tinted visions want them to be. besides, after awhile even the most romantic lovesick fool gets hungry ... and then the question pops up: what do i eat? if you have been mooning about, i'm afraid all you will be left with is moonshine and thistledown. and they cannot feed you. no matter what your spirit says. especially what your spirit says. your body and mind need stimulation and fuel too.

2. it was inevitable, and i surrendered gracefully. i cut my losses before i would get further burned. pain has its own purpose. and putting things in their proper places too...

3. again, i know. i just do. and it helps to accept, as well. and beyond that, to move forward. thank goodness for that! foolish but in the end, good sense and a hearty pragmatism always prevails.

so it goes... i am continuing the journey, and i am whistling (though not as piercingly as a certain someone, and rather more tunelessly)...i enjoy the sun and the clouds and the wind, and have my umbrella and jacket ready for stormy days. because heck, i know there will be such days. you get used to them.