Questions...and answers?

Some questions don't have answers, which is a terribly difficult lesson to learn.
-Katherine Graham-

the human psyche is capable of asking a great deal of questions...many of which do not really have any answer. ever cried out in prayer, ever felt frustrated and denied, head spinning from being wounded, bewildered and puzzled...ever heard nothing but a mocking, hard and empty silence? the sound of your distraught cries bouncing off the caverns of pain and disappointment, the echo that cannot bring with it the hope of an answer which just might give you a small measure of peace. so go the nights wandering a limbo without any soft and sweet sleep...

and you wonder what it is you believe in, why you even still want to believe in that. hell, when the pain gets that bad, all you want to do is scream out and say that you stop believing, now will you put me out of this misery...

but then when the sun rises again...and it invariably does, even in lands which see snow and rain and wind all year long...there comes, not numbness which is what you have before the pain really kicks in...but a quiet and almost anti-climactic acceptance of what happened...and that instinctive knowledge that you will never know the reasons why. you might wonder, you might question, but your mind and your heart know that the time has come to move on. even the seasons march on in the midst of carnage and destruction Mother Nature sometimes sees fit to wreak.

it's not an easy lesson to learn. it's not something automatic. but fearfully and wonderfully made, the human psyche is able to adapt and grow. and when the silence passes, a psalm plays...it is of peace. it is of knowledge that no matter how smart and how advanced we get, we will never be able to control certain things in life...and we are ok with that.