spirals and curves...

is life a straight line?

is it linear? do we know where we are going? and what we are going to do?

i speak for myself. it's not linear, at least to the best of my experience.

it's more spirals and curves with the ups and downs in a spinning, bewildering fashion that turns the head.

seriously, i don't know what to expect in my life. iv never dreamt of having the friends i do or imagined doing the things i m doing now. or being me at this moment.

but when depression hits, i sit back, cry a bit (or a lot, depending) and know that it will not last forever. and that tomorrow will come and the sun will shine into my life. am i a pessimist? or an optimist? people have described me as both, but i prefer to think of myself as a realist who acknowledges that life is a bed of roses with the thorns intact.

there is a tunnel, there is a light at the end of it. and there is another tunnel up ahead.

(actually paraphrased that from somewhere, but it says what i m thinking so well...)

listen to the song 'Do you know where you're going to? (theme from Mahogany)'

i think it's beautiful and describes perfectly the questions we ask ourselves.