something i truly long to say.

i know i seldom use this blog as a diary but there's something i really long to say.

i just would like to say i'm sorry for all my shortcomings and faults, i know of them, i m aware and i'm really trying my level best to change, to listen to all your feedback and reflect, ponder and take action on them. but it takes time, and i try to keep my heart and mind open to new possibilities and opportunities. thank you all for what you have given to me. and again your forgiveness if i have hurt any of you or let you down.

i would like to assure all of you, yes, all of you, that i still care (it takes a lot to make me hate someone and keep on hating them...really a lot) and i will be there for you. to love, to hope and to pray and to bless. in spite of...everything...in spite of the times i have been hard hearted and stony and refused to look the other way. ultimately i have always come to see the light and given freely of mercy by the grace of God.

and for all that's happened, it's in the past, and i've come to terms with them. yes, there will be long term effects but i make a conscious decision to accept it and to see the goodness in every memory. that from a wider perspective, it has enriched my life and my being.

if i should go, know always you were loved, if not by a God you did not see and in some cases, could not bring yourself to believe in, then you were loved by a very human and very real person...me. and this love could not have come of my own accord or power...i have known this since a very long time ago...to Him be the glory.

blessings upon you. have a nice day and nice life ahead!
you all know my email and icq and friendster and hp num right? so let's keep in touch...really welcome all of you in my life. :)

this is all i long to say. the essence of what i think and feels matters at the end of the day. say what you will, say what you like, i have said my piece and i m happy. :)

-in the end, only kindness matters - Jewel, from the song 'Hands'.