All that she can leave behind...

Sounds exactly like a rip off from the u2 album - all that you can't leave behind...
but in a sense, there is much that she can leave behind...

the memories of good times that linger like the aroma of a delicious meal long after it has been digested...she stores it away in a part of her subconscious and is ever mindful that nothing which happens is ever forgotten, even if it is not remembered then and there.

she is a little sad at letting go, so many missed opportunities, and so many things she would like to say. but there are none so deaf as those who do not want to hear. she shrugs, she cannot be said not to have tried at all. but still...

it seems that she cannot cry anymore. there is a numbness, so prevalent in the tenor of this whole year, that pervades her soul. but sensation will return in the fullness of time. in His time, he makes all things beautiful...even the most ugly and despicable things achieve some measure of beauty when viewed over the passing of time and with a deeper understanding. she can only hope for the patience and perseverance to see the dark night through to the sunrise.

she would just like to say that she loved them, truly, she did, and all that has happened was because she could no longer travel the same path they walk. the journey ends here. she waves goodbye and reflects on all that she has learnt and carries with her in her heart. disappointment is an ache in her heart, and she knows that deep inside, she still cares.

life is ever moving forward, it does not stay still. the words spoken, the laughter, the tears, the sometimes cruelly unjust words and sometimes fair comment, the meals shared... they are constantly replaying in her mind. frightening, in a more sentimental mood, she might shed some tears, now she only sets her lips and looks the other way. glass, broken and cutting into the flesh.

she says an earnest and hopeful prayer for God's blessings to enrich their lives,to guide them in their every endeavour. may they know peace of mind and love always. may they know true friendship.

Amen.