'Yuen Lai...'

'yuen lai', meaning it turns out that...
such a beautiful chinese phrase...i would use it for a title of a poem, if not for the fact that the poem would be in english...
yuen lai...so things are not what they seem to be. and the truth reveals itself in a dramatic, and sometimes painful gesture, that later on, makes sense as it all forms part of a larger picture. Life has a twisted meaning, and there are times i find it hard to reconcile the twistedness with the notion that God has a plan for us all. yet, i continue my struggle towards an eventual enlightenment.

have i reached a void where i do not know any emotion?

no answer, as always.

all struggles lead to an improved understanding. either of oneself, of life or of others. tomorrow beckons. it is a day replete with hope.

my face is turned toward the sun. the breeze is slight, and i m ready to take on the day. i do not look back, there is too much to lose there. a short prayer, a blessing, my pack is full and i set off.
i do not know where i may go, the road ahead is still draped in mystery. the myriad turns, the sudden corners...sometimes there is no sun. but i carry my own light with me.

He is here, i fear not.